Wednesday, April 16, 2014

It's Much More Than A Dress.......


This came in the mail today, and I was excited just to see the pretty package!  
But then I opened it....
...and this was inside!  
One of my BFF's made this for me.  
I had asked her if she would make me a cute dress out of vintage linens.  
She chose the fabric (a vintage sheet),
 and I sent her my measurements; and this lovely arrived.

 The dress is adorable, and I love it; but it's so much more than a dress to me.  It's part of the testimony of this person I love so much.  You see my friend, Leslie, is one of the biggest inspirations in my life.  Her story and testimony have impacted my life more than she probably even realizes.  The fact that she made me a dress is indeed a beautiful thing, but the fact that SHE CAN make me a dress is that much more beautiful.  Let me fill you in.  In August 2005, Leslie and Jeff were expecting their 2nd child.  We were all so excited and couldn't wait for the arrival of their baby.  Chet Harris Power, a beautiful full term baby boy, was born August 16th.  He also died on August 16th, 2005, never breathing a breath on earth.  The heartbreak that followed the loss of this precious baby was devastating.  I had never known grief like that.  Leslie and Jeff struggled....with their grief, the unbelievable sadness, the huge hole in their hearts.  They struggled.  We all struggled.  There were days when I honestly didn't know if she would survive the loss of her baby boy, but thankfully she did.  Over the next few years, I and many others, saw a transformation in Leslie and Jeff.  They were always christians and believers, but they began sharing the story of Chet and how God transformed their lives through the birth and death of their son. I can never put into words the light that shines from them when they share their testimony.  There is heartbreak, but their faith is strong; and they lean heavily on Our Jesus.  They miss their son, and the pain is still there; but the remarkable things that God has done, through them, because of Chet has transformed many people's lives....including mine.  Then a few short years later, some exciting news....another baby on the way.  Leslie and Jeff were a little nervous, okay maybe a lot nervous, but a baby was coming; and I was beyond excited.  I remember thinking how wonderful it was, and it never entered my mind that something could happen to this baby.  When I got the news that things weren't going well, and Leslie was in the hospital; I was confused.  How could something be wrong?  I mean how could anything go wrong after what had happened with Chet?  God would never allow that to happen, but.....I was wrong.  Shiloh Ross Power was born on January 5th, 2009.  He was very premature, and his little body was not able to survive.  He breathed a few breaths on earth before he joined his brother in Our Savior's arms.  Not only had they lost another baby, but during his birth Leslie suffered a stroke. She nearly died.  It was one of the most frightening times of my life and all of us who love her.   She suffered trauma to her brain and was temporarily paralyzed on one side of her body.  I thought she would be in the hospital for many many months recovering, but I was so grateful she survived.  It took a lot of hard work, determination and answered prayer for her to come home about 6 weeks later....I know it didn't seem like a few short weeks to Leslie....but for what her body endured, her recovery seemed remarkably fast to me.  She continued intensive therapy for a while once she was released from the rehabilitation hospital, and it took a bit for her to be able to drive again; but she was alive.  She still has some physical and cognitive challenges, but she is as silly as ever and still quick with her wit. She is still the goofball that I am quite attached to, and I am so thankful to have her to laugh with me.  One day in particular stands out in my mind,  it was a day I vividly remember spending the day with her shortly after she came home.  We sat outside looking at the lake and sharing deep thoughts.  Through tears, hers and mine, she told me how thankful she was to God that she survived.  When she lost Chet, there were days when she didn't know if she could survive from the grief alone.  Maybe even wondering if life were worth living while enduring such pain.  When she survived the stroke, she realized how vital her life is to so many people and how she is being used by God to tell people that He is there....to pick you up and hold you when you can't pick yourself up.   I know there were days when she could barely get out of bed after Chet died, because the grief was so overwhelming.  I'm sure there are still days like that, but I also know that Leslie is grateful to be able to get up each and every day.    She and Jeff and their daughter Beau had lost two baby boys at birth and had nearly lost Leslie, and she told me over and over how grateful she was.  Her faith is some of the strongest I've witnessed, and I thank God for her daily.
As you can see, Leslie is an amazing seamstress.  Since the stroke, she has some limited use of one of her hands; and honestly I wondered if she would be able to sew like she once did.  I have been to her house many many times over the last 5 years, and I have seen her sewing machine out with fabric around it.  I have seen a few things she has made, but I wasn't sure if she was really ready to tackle a dress; but something told me to ask her.  When we went to visit a few months ago, she showed me this cute vintage sheet she bought and asked me if I knew what it was for.  With a big grin, she told me it was for my dress.  I was excited, but knowing Leslie as well as I do; I thought I might see the dress sometime next year....not because of  effects from the stroke, but because Leslie is well....ahem...easily sidetracked and not very good with time management!  ;)  Then a few weeks later, I received a message asking for my waist measurement.  I sent it to her, but I still thought it would be quite a while before I saw a dress.  But then today, I was greeted by this lovely mailer.  When I saw the return address, I knew exactly what it was; and I found myself getting a lump in my throat.  When I opened it and put it on, I was so proud of her...literally beaming.  Yes the dress is a perfect fit and beautiful, but I was proud because of all she has overcome; and there it was staring at me in the mirror.  I was overcome with joy  because of what she has brought to my life, and how she has chosen to see the good God has brought from her circumstances.  And once again I was honored to see His light shining through her.
In honor of my wonderful friends!!

Saturday, March 29, 2014

GOD IS BIG ENOUGH....DIO ES GRANDE

It was Wednesday in Costa Rica, we were going to the school to do VBS and share the light of Our Savior with the children there.  Our youth did an amazing job of singing "This Little Light of Mine" in English and Spanish for the children, and of course I was quite proud of Addi as she played the ukulele.  The children were excited....that's not even the right word...because it was much more than that.  They were....longing to be close to us.  They listened to the singing and the Bible Story about creation, and they were into the crafts; but....it was after the lesson when the magic happened.  After the lesson, the youth and adults interacted with the children, and the children LOVED it.  I cannot really put into words how much they loved the interaction.  It was amazing to watch....people who don't speak the same language....communicating with each other.  We handed out goody bags which had blue bracelets that said DIO ES GRANDE!  When we ran out, the youth and adults took our DIO ES GRANDE bracelets off and handed those out as well.  Then it happened, one little boy....he didn't have a bracelet.  He came over and pointed to my GOD IS BIG ENOUGH bracelet with a longing in his eyes.  I put my hand over it and held it tightly and said out loud but to myself...."I can't give this one up."  I have only taken it off twice, since the day I put it on....3 years ago.  We received these after our Pastor Ken suddenly passed away, and it reminds me how faithful God is in all circumstances.  I held onto it and rubbed it between my fingers as the little boy walked away, and then I heard it....a voice saying "Give it away!"  I don't know if it was my inner conscience, Ken's voice, God's voice, whose voice; but it nudged me HARD.  I took off the bracelet, went after the little boy and handed it to him.  His smile was bright and his eyes glistened, and I knew that the Holy Spirit was right there in that moment.  I reminded myself....it's a bracelet....it's not God, it's not Ken, it's not memories, it's a bracelet.  It's true that  bracelet held a special place in my heart, and it was a wonderful reminder; but I know I don't need it to be reminded how faithful God is.  I hope that the little boy knows what it says and will be reminded too that....God is faithful in all circumstances....and I hope that he will also realize that he doesn't need the bracelet to be reminded.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Costa Rica

I just returned from Costa Rica.  Me, along with 15 other people, from our church went there to do mission work.  I was so blessed to spend the past week in Las Juntas and Coronado with my sweet Addi + 10 other youth and 4 other adults.  I can never begin to explain the things I felt while I was there and still do.  As I sat on the bus driving from Las Juntas to San Jose for our last day in Costa Rica, I quietly wept at the thought of leaving the people I had met and fallen in love with behind.  How in the world is it possible to bond so deeply with people you just met, who don't speak the same language as you?  The Holy Spirit was ever so present in every moment we spent there, and I can't stop thinking about the trip.  I don't want to forget the wonderful things that happened there, the transformations, the relationships, the need....I don't want to forget it.  I am praying for a way to get back there as often as possible, to help the people who are trying so hard to help their community and spread the love of Christ.  When I left the rest of my family behind last weekend, I said....it's not goodbye, it's see you later.  When I left Costa Rica and the people there, I said....it's not goodbye, it's Hasta Luego!  God is good....even in the midst of poverty, struggles and hard things....HE IS GOOD! As I reflect on this past week, I will post more about this wonderful place and its wonderful people.

Monday, March 3, 2014

March 3.......The Best Day of 1997!!!

Happy Birthday to my first born. The one who is most like her dad. The one who has one of the kindest hearts I've ever known. The one who is very quiet but hysterically funny. The one who is twitter famous. ;) The one who is as easy going as they come. The one who LOVES her family and whose family LOVES her back. The one who is exceptionally gifted in the creativity department. The one who may be smarter than me, in her approach to life. The one who started it all....the best journey I've ever taken...MOTHERHOOD! 
I adore this person with every ounce of my being!
 I'm truly smitten!

































Friday, February 21, 2014

I'm Tired of People

I have been so let down by people's choices over the last year, and honestly I'm just kinda tired of people in general.  Typically I love being around people, really enjoy socializing and spending time with them; but lately I would like a reprieve from people.  People have hurt me and my family, and it has been hard.  Through it, I have leaned firmly on God...pressing in as much as possible.  He is guiding me and is answering my prayers, just not necessarily in the way I thought He should.  But as things unfold, I see that He actually does know what He's doing....go figure.  I mean He is THE ALL KNOWING GOD OF THE UNIVERSE....MY CREATOR...of course He knows what's best. I have seen that many things, I don't understand, were allowed by Him to protect me from someone, some relationship, some situation or something.  There were a few times when I felt my trust waiver, and I wanted to be in complete control; but then I quickly realized that I really don't want to be in complete control.  Being in complete control is much harder and too much work for me, so God....have at it.  I will give 100% in obedience and trust.  Of course I will fail, because I am human; but I will give it my all.  And honestly I breathe a sigh of relief knowing that He's got this, and He definitely does!

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

February 5th....The Best Day of 2001!!! THIRTEEN!!!



















My smack dab in the middle child is THIRTEEN! This means that I now have more teenagers than not teenagers. This also means that my girl is closer to becoming that sweet wonderful young woman that she is growing into. Drewby Lou...my sweet, smart, simple, understated, book loving, outdoorsy, harmonica and ukulele playing, granola girl. I adore you! You will carry a piece of my heart with you always. And always remember....you were Papa's best birthday gift ever! He was so proud to have you born on his birthday! Happy Birthday Drew Michelle Payne! THIRTEEN....SIGH!