Monday, September 12, 2016
This time last year was difficult....so difficult. Although the story is not mine to tell, I can tell you that my heart was breaking. This year things are soooo much better....sooooo much! I almost hesitate to write that or say that or share that, because of that old worry about jinxing something that's going good. What I really need to say is this....time can heal and in time, things can become new again. I believe this with all my heart, however....I don't think time works alone. I think the key to allowing time to run its course is leaning into God so much that there is nowhere else to go. Leaning in and trusting with your whole being is the hardest thing in the world...especially when you want things to go much faster or much different. I've known for a long time that I am not in control, but I still try to make things go the way I think they should. Over the last few years, I've seen that oftentimes they won't. Sometimes this doesn't make sense, and I'll admit that I still don't understand many things; but I do see something good in every circumstance. Sometimes God is saving me from someone else, and sometimes God is saving me from myself. Either way....HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S DOING, and I am thankful.