It was Wednesday in Costa Rica, we were going to the school to do VBS and share the light of Our Savior with the children there. Our youth did an amazing job of singing "This Little Light of Mine" in English and Spanish for the children, and of course I was quite proud of Addi as she played the ukulele. The children were excited....that's not even the right word...because it was much more than that. They were....longing to be close to us. They listened to the singing and the Bible Story about creation, and they were into the crafts; but....it was after the lesson when the magic happened. After the lesson, the youth and adults interacted with the children, and the children LOVED it. I cannot really put into words how much they loved the interaction. It was amazing to watch....people who don't speak the same language....communicating with each other. We handed out goody bags which had blue bracelets that said DIO ES GRANDE! When we ran out, the youth and adults took our DIO ES GRANDE bracelets off and handed those out as well. Then it happened, one little boy....he didn't have a bracelet. He came over and pointed to my GOD IS BIG ENOUGH bracelet with a longing in his eyes. I put my hand over it and held it tightly and said out loud but to myself...."I can't give this one up." I have only taken it off twice, since the day I put it on....3 years ago. We received these after our Pastor Ken suddenly passed away, and it reminds me how faithful God is in all circumstances. I held onto it and rubbed it between my fingers as the little boy walked away, and then I heard it....a voice saying "Give it away!" I don't know if it was my inner conscience, Ken's voice, God's voice, whose voice; but it nudged me HARD. I took off the bracelet, went after the little boy and handed it to him. His smile was bright and his eyes glistened, and I knew that the Holy Spirit was right there in that moment. I reminded myself....it's a bracelet....it's not God, it's not Ken, it's not memories, it's a bracelet. It's true that bracelet held a special place in my heart, and it was a wonderful reminder; but I know I don't need it to be reminded how faithful God is. I hope that the little boy knows what it says and will be reminded too that....God is faithful in all circumstances....and I hope that he will also realize that he doesn't need the bracelet to be reminded.
I started journaling several years ago when I realized that I couldn't possibly remember every milestone, cute phrase, wonderful expression, heart tugging word or life changing action that occurs within my own family. I had to face the fact that my brain has become fuller and fuller with each baby born and each day that passes; and now it's overloaded. I find myself having to write down everything from a daily "To Do" list to much more important things like the first time my son kissed me on the lips. I don't want to take anything for granted and chance that I might not remember. I journal in a notebook, in my own handwriting, with the intent and hope that someday my sweet buttercups will cherish having these journals in their mama's own handwriting. I started this blog, because there are some things that are meant to be shared and some things that I hope someone will read and enjoy. Maybe I can learn something from a reader or two as well.
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I am happy to say....
Jesus is my first love!
My children are beautiful, inside and out!
I'm as happy as I've ever been!
NPayne thinks I'm beautiful!
I LOVE vintage!
I live in America!
I let my children get dirty!
I thoroughly enjoy Bible Study!
I'm addicted to linens!
I enjoy watching football on TV!
I live in a house full of imagination!
I pray for world peace!
I support our troops and pray for them daily!
I am VERY sentimental!
My parents were married for 40 years!
I love thrift stores and flea markets!
My favorite room in my house is the nursery!
There are 4 princesses and one prince in my house which makes me a Queen!
I buy organic and eat organic!
We pray together!
I'm a free spirit with an old soul!
My house is covered in photographs of my family!
Four of my five children can make their own breakfast!
I LOVE Saturday Night Disco at our house!
I am shabby chic....maybe a little more shabby than chic!
My children love each other very much!
I wanted a huge family, at least 7 children!
I love making something old into something beautiful!
My wedding ring is an emerald!
I still have a baby in my house!
I have my mother's every day dishes!
I have my mother in law's china!
I try extremely hard not to be judgemental!
My house is 100 years old!
My bed is one of my favorite places to be!
Music often moves me to tears!
I am very easily amused!
I read The Bible!
NPayne and I have a date each week!
I love being a mother with every ounce of my being!
All my babies were delivered by the same doctor!
I have date days with each of my children!
I absolutely loved being pregnant!
I will have eternal life!
I drink a lot of coffee!
I'm a teacher!
I love my church!
I am creative!
I recycle A LOT!
This is my natural hair color (sort of).
I bake with my children every week!
I'm very low maintenance!
I love my girlfriends!
I have good, I mean really good, children!
I'm a believer!
Our family has lots of traditions!
I adore my husband!
My children think I'm the best mom in the whole world!
Add to the madness!!!
Even though we ain't got money....
I'm so in love with you honey!
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