Friday, August 19, 2016
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
Addi and I attended a conference this past weekend called The Inspired Story. It was designed to give photographers insight on bringing or keeping Jesus in your business and giving Him the glory. There were lots of good stories and inspiration. There were lots of stories about suffering, and how God blesses you during those times. There was lots of learning. I took away a lot, but one thing that really struck me was how one speaker said the business of photographry can be very lonely. I've been stuck in a rut lately, and I think this is why. The actual session is still as much fun and brings me as much joy as always, but the after part has become quite mundane. I think this is why....loneliness. I also think this may be why I've been turning down many weddings lately. They are glorious to shoot, but then I edit and invest my time and emotions in people I may never see again. When I photograph families, I usually always see them again. Many of them have become my friends, and we have a connection. Oftentimes when I shoot a wedding, the connection ends as soon as the images are delivered. When I'm very busy with editing, I sit alone hunkered down with my coffee and music and work. Sometimes it gets tedious, and I end up with a stiff back and tired eyes; but I still enjoy it....until lately. I think the lonely part is what has made it not as enjoyable as it use to be for me. I've been doing this a long time now, and although I do really love alone time...too much of this kind of alone time takes its toll. I'm feeling led to start looking for other things to photograph and to make a change in my business. What that will look like....I don't know yet.
As summer is quickly coming to a close, I am sad and excited. Things are changing in our house physically and otherwise. I will have at least one child at home with me for schooling this year, and I'm thrilled; but I'm also a tad nervous. I want to make sure our time together is valuable. She is excited about it, and I am too. However as I've been searching for things that she is interested in learning (which don't necessarily involve academics or curriculum), I'm discovering that most classes and teachers still only offer times that are typically "after school hours". I was kind of hoping to find the knitting class, art class, cooking class, etc. that were offered during school hours; but no luck yet. Part of the lure of homeschooling is not using weekends for extra things, but preserving weekends for adventures and family. As more and more people turn to homeschooling, I hope some of these things will become available. For now, we will pick and choose a few and go from there. I have another, who is contemplating, homeschooling this year. I pray that whatever her decision, it will be best for her. As the school year approaches, I am excited about being actively involved in my kids' learning. This is gonna be a good year!