Today Elliot read me the story of Lazarus in the book of John. I've heard this story many many times before. I've studied Mary and Martha. I've even studied the book of John several times as it is one of my favorites. But today as she read, I took notice of some words that I don't remember before..."Behold how He loved him!" Jesus wept, not because of Lazarus's death; because He knew He was going to raise Lazarus back to the living. He wept, because of the mourning and heartbreak of those who loved Lazarus....particularly his sisters, Mary and Martha. I have thought about those two words, "Jesus wept", often as I've contemplated Jesus feeling sadness for us which I believe He does. But I've never paid close attention to the words that followed, "Behold how He loved him!" The Jews believed that Jesus was weeping, because Lazarus was dead which as I mentioned above was not the case. They believed his weeping was a sign of his love for Lazarus, and yes Jesus did love Lazarus; but he also knew Lazarus would be raised. As I read those words, I was reminded how death whether it be actual physical or by broken relationship or illness or any other way; and the grief we feel as a result is also a result of the love we shared. "Behold how He loved him!" Words like these have been in my heart several times as I've lost people I love so very much, yet I am just now noticing them for the first time in The Bible. I've been thinking about and missing my parents so much, and isn't it awesome how God orchestrated this time on this day for me to take notice of these words? These words that are a peaceful reminder of love.
I started journaling several years ago when I realized that I couldn't possibly remember every milestone, cute phrase, wonderful expression, heart tugging word or life changing action that occurs within my own family. I had to face the fact that my brain has become fuller and fuller with each baby born and each day that passes; and now it's overloaded. I find myself having to write down everything from a daily "To Do" list to much more important things like the first time my son kissed me on the lips. I don't want to take anything for granted and chance that I might not remember. I journal in a notebook, in my own handwriting, with the intent and hope that someday my sweet buttercups will cherish having these journals in their mama's own handwriting. I started this blog, because there are some things that are meant to be shared and some things that I hope someone will read and enjoy. Maybe I can learn something from a reader or two as well.
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I am happy to say....
Jesus is my first love!
My children are beautiful, inside and out!
I'm as happy as I've ever been!
NPayne thinks I'm beautiful!
I LOVE vintage!
I live in America!
I let my children get dirty!
I thoroughly enjoy Bible Study!
I'm addicted to linens!
I enjoy watching football on TV!
I live in a house full of imagination!
I pray for world peace!
I support our troops and pray for them daily!
I am VERY sentimental!
My parents were married for 40 years!
I love thrift stores and flea markets!
My favorite room in my house is the nursery!
There are 4 princesses and one prince in my house which makes me a Queen!
I buy organic and eat organic!
We pray together!
I'm a free spirit with an old soul!
My house is covered in photographs of my family!
Four of my five children can make their own breakfast!
I LOVE Saturday Night Disco at our house!
I am shabby chic....maybe a little more shabby than chic!
My children love each other very much!
I wanted a huge family, at least 7 children!
I love making something old into something beautiful!
My wedding ring is an emerald!
I still have a baby in my house!
I have my mother's every day dishes!
I have my mother in law's china!
I try extremely hard not to be judgemental!
My house is 100 years old!
My bed is one of my favorite places to be!
Music often moves me to tears!
I am very easily amused!
I read The Bible!
NPayne and I have a date each week!
I love being a mother with every ounce of my being!
All my babies were delivered by the same doctor!
I have date days with each of my children!
I absolutely loved being pregnant!
I will have eternal life!
I drink a lot of coffee!
I'm a teacher!
I love my church!
I am creative!
I recycle A LOT!
This is my natural hair color (sort of).
I bake with my children every week!
I'm very low maintenance!
I love my girlfriends!
I have good, I mean really good, children!
I'm a believer!
Our family has lots of traditions!
I adore my husband!
My children think I'm the best mom in the whole world!
Add to the madness!!!
Even though we ain't got money....
I'm so in love with you honey!
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