Saturday, February 4, 2012


As you know, I'm a worrier by nature. It's sort of odd, because I don't really worry about what's going on right now....I worry about what's to come....several months from now or even years from now. I've started that same worrying I did when Cal was in 4th grade.....worrying about how he would do in middle school. Now he's in 7th grade, and I'm worried about where to send him to high school. I've started worrying about how middle school will affect Drew next year. Actually I'm not really worried about it, but honestly I'm just a little saddened by it. Watching Addi go through middle school was really hard. She was fine and did great, made lots of friends, enjoyed her time there; but I did not. I had to adjust to the fact that there are teachers who don't want to talk to you about your child, that there are things that I don't feel are appropriate that occur, that she became a teenager. But ultimately what saddened me was the fact that she started to outgrow the "little girl" things.....she stopped playing Barbies, and school, and American Girl Dolls, and watching PBS, she didn't want to do gymnastics in the front yard or run through the sprinklers anymore. It made me sad. Of course I want my children to grow and thrive, and I know going from one stage to another is part of that; but it seems like time goes by so quickly.....just a few years ago, I was reading her books and singing her songs....wasn't I? It seems like a few years ago, but in reality it was quite a while ago. Addi is growing into a lovely young lady, and I have every confidence that Drew will do the same....but it will be without her Barbies and Webkinz.....SIGH!

"WORSHIP ME ONLY. Whatever occupies your mind the most becomes your god. Worries, if indulged, develop into idols. Anxiety gains a life of its own, parasitically infesting your mind. Break free from this bondage by affirming your trust in Me and refreshing yourself in My Presence. What goes on in your mind is invisible, undetectable to other people. But I read your thoughts continually, searching for evidence of trust in Me. I rejoice when your mind turns towards Me. Guard your thoughts diligently; good thought-choices will keep you close to Me."
From Jesus Calling Devotional
They will have no fear of bad news;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD. Psalm 112:7

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