Friday, May 24, 2013

Cal-My Special Boy!

I won't ever pretend that having a special needs child is easy.  I will say that, although there have been some tough tough times, he has blessed my life.  I always feel melancholy this time of year....the school year is coming to an kids are another year older which means I'm about to be the mom of a junior, freshman, 7th grader, 4th grader and 1st grader....SIGH!   This is definitely one of the toughest times of the year for me as the mom of a special needs child.  There are always celebrations, awards assemblies, formals, etc.; and Cal never goes.  Mostly he never goes, because he really isn't interested or he doesn't understand it.  For him, it's not a big deal.  But for me.....I'll say it out loud sometimes is.  I wish he would do some typical 8th grade things and celebrate with his typical friends, but it's just too much for him.  Last night was the 8th grade celebration.  Because we knew it would be so long and so much sitting, and Drew had a performance at the exact same time; we opted not to take Cal.  My friend, Sophia (Cal's buddy Adam's mom), text me to let me know that Cal had gotten an award for perfect attendance for all 3 years of middle school.  WOW!  I didn't realize he had not missed a day of school for 3 years!  She also said there were some really sweet pictures of Cal, Adam and their buddy Cole!  That deep melancholy feeling settled itself into my heart.  I kept second guessing and thinking maybe I should have tried to take him, but Sophia confirmed that it was very long and a lot of sitting and even difficult for the typical kids; so I decided we made the right decision....kinda!  As I was reading her text messages, I watched my boy.  He was lying on the ottoman watching Thomas videos, and I know that he is happy....and then my reality sets in again, and I know that is what matters....that he is happy!  It's not about me, it's about him!!  He is happy.  I am blessed to be his mama!

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