This boy, my boy, will be a freshman next year! SIGH! Today we had his ARD meeting, the last one we will have for him in middle school. It was long, informative and awesome. Cal presented a power point complete with text and photos of himself and his friends. It explained all the things he has done in middle school. It was amazing. I can't believe my sweet little towheaded boy will be in high school....dry your eyes! I have to be honest when I say I spent a good part of my afternoon crying at the thought of my boy! ARDs often have a way of doing that to me. I held it together through the power point and listening to his sweet voice read it while Ms. Tandy (his teacher) whispered to him the hard words. When his teacher and therapists, who have known him since he was 3, began talking about him moving on from them; it was tough! We met the teacher he will have in high school, and she seems fabulous; and I know he will excel. Watching your children plan for their future is wonderful, but it's so hard at the same time. Time is going by so very fast. Planning for a special needs child takes a lot of thought, but there is so much uncertainty that accompanies it as well. NPayne and I wanted to say "We don't know" to so many of the things we were asked, because we don't know. How can we know what to expect when he's 18 when we don't know what to expect in six months. He surprises us all the time with the progress he's making, but honestly "we don't know"! Truthfully I'm in no hurry to talk about group homes and jobs for him....truthfully I'm in no hurry to talk about where my typical almost 16 year old will live after high school either. I just want to have them near me as long as possible. At one point during the ARD, I rested my hand on his chair. He picked it up and held it for a very long time. I don't know if he was trying to ease my mind, his mind or both. I wish everyone could know Cal and appreciate the kind of person he is and what he can teach you! Cal is cool!
I started journaling several years ago when I realized that I couldn't possibly remember every milestone, cute phrase, wonderful expression, heart tugging word or life changing action that occurs within my own family. I had to face the fact that my brain has become fuller and fuller with each baby born and each day that passes; and now it's overloaded. I find myself having to write down everything from a daily "To Do" list to much more important things like the first time my son kissed me on the lips. I don't want to take anything for granted and chance that I might not remember. I journal in a notebook, in my own handwriting, with the intent and hope that someday my sweet buttercups will cherish having these journals in their mama's own handwriting. I started this blog, because there are some things that are meant to be shared and some things that I hope someone will read and enjoy. Maybe I can learn something from a reader or two as well.
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I am happy to say....
Jesus is my first love!
My children are beautiful, inside and out!
I'm as happy as I've ever been!
NPayne thinks I'm beautiful!
I LOVE vintage!
I live in America!
I let my children get dirty!
I thoroughly enjoy Bible Study!
I'm addicted to linens!
I enjoy watching football on TV!
I live in a house full of imagination!
I pray for world peace!
I support our troops and pray for them daily!
I am VERY sentimental!
My parents were married for 40 years!
I love thrift stores and flea markets!
My favorite room in my house is the nursery!
There are 4 princesses and one prince in my house which makes me a Queen!
I buy organic and eat organic!
We pray together!
I'm a free spirit with an old soul!
My house is covered in photographs of my family!
Four of my five children can make their own breakfast!
I LOVE Saturday Night Disco at our house!
I am shabby chic....maybe a little more shabby than chic!
My children love each other very much!
I wanted a huge family, at least 7 children!
I love making something old into something beautiful!
My wedding ring is an emerald!
I still have a baby in my house!
I have my mother's every day dishes!
I have my mother in law's china!
I try extremely hard not to be judgemental!
My house is 100 years old!
My bed is one of my favorite places to be!
Music often moves me to tears!
I am very easily amused!
I read The Bible!
NPayne and I have a date each week!
I love being a mother with every ounce of my being!
All my babies were delivered by the same doctor!
I have date days with each of my children!
I absolutely loved being pregnant!
I will have eternal life!
I drink a lot of coffee!
I'm a teacher!
I love my church!
I am creative!
I recycle A LOT!
This is my natural hair color (sort of).
I bake with my children every week!
I'm very low maintenance!
I love my girlfriends!
I have good, I mean really good, children!
I'm a believer!
Our family has lots of traditions!
I adore my husband!
My children think I'm the best mom in the whole world!
Add to the madness!!!
Even though we ain't got money....
I'm so in love with you honey!
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