Seven Years Ago....The Best Day of 2003!

Seven Years Ago Today....God grew our family by one more daughter. We are so thankful for this child He has lent to us. Bryna Mae Payne was born on September. 28, 2003. She was a preemie weighing in at over 7 pounds....yes she was the biggest preemie in the NICU! Bryna spent 8 days in the NICU.....8 LOOOOONG days! Thankfully she came home and is growing into a lovely young lady. The name Bryna means.....HOPE....which is what we were filled with when she was born so sick! Mae was NPayne's grandmother's middle name and my grandmother's middle name. I knew, long before B was born, that one of my children would have the name Mae! Bryna has always been full of life....even when she was in the NICU! She is a fighter, determined, and very strong....in her will ;) and herself.

Bryna is always willing to try new things.

She is easily encouraged and about the happiest person I know.

Bryna is my most affectionate child.

She still thrives on holding your hand,

sitting in your lap, and just wrapping her sweet arms around your neck.

She is so full of LOVE!

Her face is always smiling,

and she LOVES doing things to make others smile.

Her smile is contagious!

She is definitely a free spirit who has a song rolling off her tongue constantly.

She is the girl who got into trouble for constantly singing at school,

because she doesn't even realize she's doing it most of the time.

As sad for her as I was about this, I understand that there are times when

SINGING YOUR HEART OUT may be a little disruptive.

Bryna loves MUSIC!

I truly believe that she has a GOD given musical talent

and will use that in some fashion throughout her life.

She's quirky and jolly!

She has the best laugh you've ever heard.

In fact, she won the "Best Giggle" award in her preschool class....

at least she didn't get in trouble for laughing at school.

She is girly through and through and

LOVES to dress up,

but she also LOVES to play outside and get dirty.

She is my child who will come inside

covered in dirt with holes in her clothes

and have absolutely no idea how that happened. :)

I am so very proud of her for overcoming her fears.

She is easily frightened by many things...mainly things in movies or on TV!

She is my child who use to be so terrified of animals

that she would shriek like someone in a horror film

if a dog even thought about approaching her.

Now she is the one who I always hear saying....

"Let's go in the backyard and play with our dogs!"

Bryna use to be scared of the water,

but this year she learned to swim!

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She loves the ocean

and playing with her family at the beach.

Bryna can't wait to grow up.

She wants to be a mommy and a performer...

singer or dancer!

She is the most attached to her siblings,

and she CANNOT sleep alone.

She use to share a room with Drew

and now she shares a room with Elliot.

If she wakes up and her roommate is not there,

she immediately gets concerned.

She absolutely LOVES her family

and has such admiration for her big sisters.

She wants to be just like them.

She is very gentle with Cal,

but she doesn't let him get away with anything he wants.

I love that she's a mommy's girl

and a daddy's girl!

She is physically tough as nails....

she has NEVER cried when she has gotten a shot,

she barely grimmaced when she broke her leg,

I didn't even know that she slammed her finger in the

door until a few days later when I happened to notice

it was black and blue and the nail was falling off.

On the flip side....

When it comes to emotions, she is a marshmallow....

she cries when her feelings are hurt by one of her sisters, or

if she disappoints anyone....especially herself.

She has a sensitive soul with a joyful disposition!

Bryna is very bright and taught herself to read,

because she was determined not to be left out

when she played school with her sisters.

She prays openly for others, and she shines the light!

Her kindergarten teacher told me that she asked their classmates

to pray for their friend who was absent, because she had strep throat.

Some of her friends didn't know about praying, but she helped them learn.

She talks openly of Jesus and the sacrifice He made for us....

all the while asking her family questions to make sure she is sharing the right information!

She LOVES unconditionally and when her friends tell her

they don't believe in Jesus or believe He died in a field of flowers,

she accepts them, loves them, and skips off holding their hands....

but she stands firm in what she knows is the truth...The Bible!

She looks like her daddy

but of the five....

she definitley is her own person.

I wouldn't say she was more like me or NPayne...

she's just BRYNA!

She lives in her own world that I affectionately refer to as

B's World! I would describe this world as:

a world where you kick your shoes off

as soon as you walk into a house....doesn't have to be just your house,

could be your neighbor's house, your grandmother's house,

friend's house, or even a house where you don't even know the residents that well;

and when it's time to put your shoes on again....you have no idea where you kicked them off

because you were too excited to be there when you arrived that you don't remember.

This is a world where you leave the tooth fairy notes that say things like...

"Hi, I'm Bryna

I just wanted you to know that I've lost both top teeth now.

I'll be the one sleeping when you come!

Love, Bryna"!

This is a world where you pirouette

in church when you are moved by a song we are singing.

A world where you would love to live on pizza and ice cream and

dessert is the center of your universe.

A world where you never meet a stranger, and

will walk up to about anyone and introduce yourself;

so you will have someone to play with.

A world where you don't like cleaning up but really love making the mess!

A world where finding a ladybug and blowing bubbles can make your day.

A world where we embrace life and enjoy every moment of it.

A world that we should all visit from time to time!

To My Bryna,

You are the most wonderful 7 year old I know, and I love you more than any other 7 year old in the whole entire world. You bring a burst of joyful sunshine to our lives each and every day!

You are my love, and I adore you! I can't wait to see your big bright smile when you see me waiting in the carpool lane to pick you up today!

Love, Mama

JENKS not Jinx

A few people had mentioned it to me, and then I was strolling through the living room and noticed NPayne watching it; so I stopped to check it out. Before I knew it, I was sitting down with NPayne and Drew; and we were completely engrossed in it. "The World of Jenks".....is what I'm referring to. It's a reality show on MTV, where 24 year old, Andrew Jenks spends a week with someone who he is trying to understand, get a better feel for, see how their life experiences are, live their life. Jenks is a documentary film maker and from what I could tell....a very genuinely nice guy. The reason we were so engrossed in this particular episode was because of who Jenks was spending the week with....Chad....a 20 year old young man with Autism. As NPayne, Drew and I sat and watched that show....a whole new realm of emotions was stirred inside of me. It was sort of.....well....odd! I have to admit watching Chad and his parents and the love they have for each other was so refreshing and wonderful to me, but it was also so very sad to hear Chad's dad say that their family doesn't think they are "doing a good job" raising Chad. I have a son who has autism, and we have known this and lived with this for about 8 years; and until you experience it.....nobody should tell you if you are or are not "doing a good job". Watching that 20 year old with autism....who was SO MUCH like my son....except for the use of profanity....thank goodness. was so very emotional. Watching Chad and his behaviors, fears, routines, brilliance, and listening to his phrases, fears, joys....in that little boy voice coming out of that grown up man....was so bittersweet! I loved seeing how he grew to love Jenks and how their relationship was so pure and raw and honest, but I have to admit that it was hard to think about my boy being 20 and still facing the same fears he has had his whole little boy life. As you grow, you overcome some of your fears....at least most typical people do....I think....don't they? I know I did....maybe not all of them but definitely some! I think that is one of the hardest and easiest things about having a child with autism.....the not knowing or knowing what to expect. For my girls, I just sort of assume a few things about their lives....which maybe I shouldn't and of course could be completely inaccurate assumptions. I assume they will go to college. I assume they will get married. I assume they will all become mothers. I assume they will be successful in whatever they do....whether it be working outside of the home or not or both. But for Cal, I really don't assume much....except that he is my sweet boy; and I will always love him. Honestly I have NO idea what lies ahead for him. A few years ago, I would have NEVER guessed or even began to fathom that he is doing some of the things he is doing now.....riding to school in the car instead of on the bus, because the transition was easier on the bus.....reading.....giving himself a bath....dressing himself....eating out at more than one restaurant....sitting through the entire church service every Sunday....making friends....playing baseball in our front yard....asking for a hair cut.....eating all sorts of new foods, since he started middle school like cheese pizza, chicken nuggets with ketchup, pb&j, cupcakes, ice cream AND.....the newest food he prepared and tried last Friday at school was.....

Ms. Blackstock....Cal's amazing teacher!

TACOS!

If you didn't get to see "The World of Jenks" where Jenks spends the week with Chad, I urge you to watch it on demand if you are able. It left me sobbing and sad and happy, but all in all....it was AMAZING!

OVERWHELMED....Not!

Rarely do I get overwhelmed.....I mean really overwhelmed....and when I do get overwhelmed, it's not usually in a bad way. It's more like overwhelmed when I feel God speaking to me and nudging me in a certain way, or overwhelmed by kindness someone has shown me or my family, or overwhelmed by the love I feel for someone; BUT....occasionally I get overwhelmed in not such a great way. The season of Christmas oftentimes overwhelms me, being exceptionally busy overwhelms me...which I've figured out is why Christmas time is overwhelming....it's busy! Today I started out a little overwhelmed in a not so good way. I looked around at things I needed to get done and at the things I've checked off my long term to do list and realized that there's still a lot I would like to get accomplished. This is purely my thinking of how I want things organized, finished, re-done, cleaned up, cleaned out, etc. at our house. We re-did bedrooms this summer....check that off the long to do list...and I've been cleaning out all sorts of stuff and getting rid of all sorts of stuff....check that off the long and short to do lists, sold some furniture.....check that off the to do list; but HELP ME HENRY....it feels like I just get one thing accomplished and realize there's 2 additional things to do. I've decided that I just need to get to it when I can and not get OVERWHELMED by it....don't stress out if it doesn't get done when I think it should....just know it will get done when it gets done! Sometimes just let it sit. I had plans for the girls today....cleaning their rooms, the bathroom, cleaning out their closets, putting away their clothes, etc. and then.....the craziest thing happened....I let them play instead....ALL DAY LONG! ;) I let them pick flowers and play outside and get really dirty and play with our dogs and enjoy each other. They won't be children for long, and before I know it....they won't be playing with each other anymore....so I relished in them being little girls....and doing what sisters do together. Now don't get me wrong, I still did some laundry and a few housekeeping things; BUT....I enjoyed them enjoying each other in the midst of it all; and I forgot all about being overwhelmed!

"Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift, Thats why it's called the Present"

DREW PAYNE....Hall of Fame!

We are so blessed to be able to send our children to the most wonderful elementary school ever. Our children learn so much there but one of the most important things, I feel, they learn is kindness. Through Rachel's Challenge, our children are taught about being kind and compassionate. If a child/teacher sees another child doing something kind, they can write a link that says what their peer did that was kind. The links are long strips of paper which are linked together throughout the school. Last year, I believe our school had approximately 4500 links strung throughout the school with all the kind and compassionate things the students had done for each other. I LOVE IT! I can't tell you how much I LOVE that they are doing this.

This year our school has adopted something else to help recognize students who are kind, compassionate, and hard working. Every Friday, the entire school starts the morning off with an assembly....it's really like a little pep rally. They sing the school song, compete for a spirit stick, honor some of the children who have received links; AND induct 4 students into the HALL OF FAME. Four teachers are chosen each week to nominate one of their homeroom students to the HALL OF FAME! This past week, Drew's teacher was chosen and guess who she inducted into the HALL OF FAME? That's right people....my Drewby! The students don't know that they are being inducted, and the teacher calls the parents to invite them up to watch their child be inducted; so of course NPayne, myself, Bryna, Elliot and Addi were there. Cal was already at school, so we didn't throw off his schedule too much. When it was Ms. Norwood's turn, she called Drew up and this is what she said....

"Drew Payne is just a delightful student! She comes in every morning with a smile on her face and is cheerful all day long. When problems do come up, Drew handles them calmly and then moves on. Drew willingly works with whoever she needs to in class and is kind and cooperative with all her classmates. She knows how to help other students without just giving them the answers and can explain how to do something clearly so that other students also understand her strategy. I can count on her to be ready and listening with her eyes on me. She almost always has her hand up to participate in class and share her ideas or answer questions. Drew always helps when we need chairs put up or extra help picking up trash in class. When it comes to working on her own, Drew has the desire to do well and carefully follows directions and checks her work to be sure it is complete and correct. Drew is a great asset to our classroom."

I am so very proud to call her my daughter.

As Ms. Norwood told me when she contacted me about Drew being inducted into the Hall of Fame....she is just a great kid! That she is....that she is!

Tis The Season....ALREADY???? Help Me Henry!

I can't believe I am about to say type this, but it's almost time to start thinking about Christmas cards.....at least from a photographers standpoint! I am not a fan of rushing Christmas, and I really really really despise....I mean it's one of my biggest pet peeves....when folks completely skip from Halloween to Christmas and forget all about Thanksgiving. Maybe that's because....I HEART Thanksgiving! Honestly I really just despise rushing through the whole holiday season of Halloween and Thanksgiving to get to Christmas! As you may know from previous blog posts, Christmas sort of wears me out! Not the meaning of Christmas....the birth of Christ is the greatest gift we have ever received....but the materialism, the stuff, the busyness, etc. I'm exhausted just thinking about it, BUT....I have had to start preparing and getting Christmas card samples ready; so I can start booking appointments.....they fill up fast; and as they say....it's here before you know it!

Bryna's God Moment

Our church, like I think many churches, offers a few different styles of worship....contemporary, traditional, and blended! Each service offers a children's message, but they are oftentimes led by different pastors depending on which service you're in. We attend the contemporary service, and in that service our lead pastor Ken leads the children's message. Each week, he hands out an old box.... that once held computer paper.... to a child in the service. The box has all sorts of children's drawings and coloring all over it, and it is actually quite cute. The following week, the child who received the box returns it, during the children's message, with something in it. Pastor Ken has no idea what's in it until he opens it. Then he uses whatever is in the box to teach the kids about the love of Christ, being called to serve, etc. This week, Bryna had the box. She chose to put some playdough in the box. When Pastor Ken opened it, he took it out and talked to the kids about shaping and forming the playdough into whatever they wanted. Then he talked to them about how Jesus is the potter, and we are the clay; and how if we will let Him....He will mold us into the people he meant for us to be. They close in prayer, he hands the box to another child, and the children return to their seats in the pews for the rest of the service. Throughout the rest of the service, Bryna....who I'll admit gets fairly bored during church....sat and flipped through her Bible. She didn't really pay attention to what was going on in church which is actually quite normal for her. As we stood to sing the closing hymn, I got a little tickle in my stomache and couldn't help but smile when I realized what we were going to sing. We began to sing "Change My Heart Oh God", and when we got to the chorus which is:

"You are the potter, I am the clay, Mold me and make me, This is what I pray".

Bryna suddenly looked up at me with the most fascinated look on her face as if she were thinking (which she was)....How did they know to sing that song and how did they know I was going to put playdough in the box and how did they know that Pastor Ken was going to teach us about the potter and the clay? She hugged me really tightly and then just grinned.

Wren, our music director, plans out the music for the services several days before the actual service. He had no idea that Bryna was going to put playdough in the box and that Pastor Ken was going to talk about The Potter and The Clay! To me, these can be identified as God Moments. I think Bryna had her own God Moment, and I also think she may have gotten a little tickle in her stomache too.

I Can't Play With You....You Believe In Jesus!

Last night at dinner, Drew and Bryna and I were talking when Drew revealed that she knew of two people who were Bryna's friends who didn't believe in Jesus. Bryna looked at me nervously as if I was going to tell her she could never speak to those friends again....which is exactly what I did not do. As we discussed this, they told me that one little girl had told another friend that her mom said they couldn't be friends anymore; because she believed in Jesus. I said...."Hmmmm that's interesting, since they played together all of last year!" Apparently last year, the one friend didn't wear a cross necklace and now she does! Then Drew told me that the little girl said she does believe in Jesus, but she believes He died in a field of flowers. I thought about it for a minute....not too long....but long enough to figure out how I wanted to address this. I just explained that we are a believing and accepting family of Jesus Christ, and believing and accepting are two different things. Many people believe that Jesus existed, but they don't accept the grace and salvation He offers us. We know that Jesus died on the cross for our sins, because it says so in The Bible. We are not a judging family, and it is not our place to judge others on their beliefs. We are called to love and to serve....not to judge. I asked the girls to continue to shine the light of Christ in their daily activities and to stand firm in their beliefs but to remember that it is not our place to judge. I encouraged them both to continue their friendship with the little girls who may believe/may not believe and not to be afraid to share their beliefs about Jesus being Our Savior but to do it in a gentle, kind, loving way. What I can hope is that maybe Drew's and Bryna's words and love will light a spark in those little girls' hearts and maybe they will start feeling the nudge....maybe they already are; and my girls were put in their path to help brighten the spark.

My Day Off

So today was my "day off". This is my second, since school started. What I mean by "day off" is a day that I have completely to myself. It's weird, since I haven't had a full day to myself(well from 9-2:30) on a regular weekly basis in almost 13 1/2 years. Last week, I spent my first "day off" at lunch with my best friend...her treat! This week, I have been planning all week what I was going to do today. Of course you may be thinking that I should be cleaning the house, weeding the flower beds, doing the laundry, finish cleaning out the closets....and maybe I should, but I'm not. Well actually I did do a load of laundry this morning. This is how my day unfolded.... I went to my weekly Bible Study, then I visited with a few friends, then I started hitting the spots I have been wanting to go for a very long time....mainly stores that people have told me about that I have never had the chance to visit or just don't visit that often. First, I went to my favorite store of all time....ANTHROPOLOGIE! I love everything in that store....but mainly I love the home decor. I have a gift card to Anthropologie from my birthday last December that I haven't spent, and today....I still didn't spend it. Second I went to Nordstrom Rack....never been there....not bad....didn't purchase anything (a little too pricey for me)! Then I was about to head to the mall and ended up taking a detour.....you will never guess where I ended up....NEVER....at my house! I decided that what I really wanted to do today was enjoy some quiet. So here I am blogging in the quiet....I may even take a cat nap before my "day off" is over! Toodles!

A Question Answered

Before I give my opinion....remember it's my opinion...and we are all entitled to our opinions. Do I believe that God causes bad things to happen to people? My answer is NO! I do not believe God causes bad things to happen to people. I believe that sometimes we suffer, because of the natural consequences of life. Many times God will intervene and change circumstances and many times He won't. I spoke to my pastor about this and in the discussion, he described it this way....

"As parents we allow our children to experience the consequences of their actions. If we removed those consequences, our children would grow up to be spoiled, terrible adults. So for the well being we let them have difficulty. Some even call this tough love. I believe for the good of humanity, God lets us suffer consequences. God's end for us is not this life, but eternity."

When the first humans, Adam and Eve, demanded free will by disobeying God and eating the apple....I believe the paths of humans were changed forever....and since that time, we have progressively gotten worse about wanting to be in charge or in control! I know there are so many people who have a wonderful relationship with Jesus, but we all have to admit that it's so very challenging to give up complete control to Our Savior! In this respect, we are still demanding free will from Him!

Sunday Sermon Summary and A Question...

Do you think God causes bad things to happen to people? This was the question posed today in our sermon. Do you think God says....'Hmmmm, I think I will let that guy get really sick; because he made bad choices about what he put in his body?' Or maybe He says.....'It looks like a really good time to let those parents suffer, so I'll make their child terminally ill.'

What about some things it says in The Bible...the book of Jonah for example:

Jonah 1:1-20 (New International Version)

Jonah 1

Jonah Flees From the LORD

¹ The word of the LORD came to Jonah son of Amittai: ² "Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me."

³ But Jonah ran away from the LORD and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the LORD.

⁴ Then the LORD sent a great wind on the sea, and such a violent storm arose that the ship threatened to break up. ⁵ All the sailors were afraid and each cried out to his own god. And they threw the cargo into the sea to lighten the ship.
But Jonah had gone below deck, where he lay down and fell into a deep sleep. ⁶ The captain went to him and said, "How can you sleep? Get up and call on your god! Maybe he will take notice of us, and we will not perish."

⁷ Then the sailors said to each other, "Come, let us cast lots to find out who is responsible for this calamity." They cast lots and the lot fell on Jonah.

⁸ So they asked him, "Tell us, who is responsible for making all this trouble for us? What do you do? Where do you come from? What is your country? From what people are you?"

⁹ He answered, "I am a Hebrew and I worship the LORD, the God of heaven, who made the sea and the land."

¹⁰ This terrified them and they asked, "What have you done?" (They knew he was running away from the LORD, because he had already told them so.)

¹¹ The sea was getting rougher and rougher. So they asked him, "What should we do to you to make the sea calm down for us?"

¹² "Pick me up and throw me into the sea," he replied, "and it will become calm. I know that it is my fault that this great storm has come upon you."

¹³ Instead, the men did their best to row back to land. But they could not, for the sea grew even wilder than before. ¹⁴ Then they cried to the LORD, "O LORD, please do not let us die for taking this man's life. Do not hold us accountable for killing an innocent man, for you, O LORD, have done as you pleased." ¹⁵ Then they took Jonah and threw him overboard, and the raging sea grew calm. ¹⁶ At this the men greatly feared the LORD, and they offered a sacrifice to the LORD and made vows to him.

I am wondering....what do you think? I know what I think, but before I share my thoughts; I would like to know yours! Leave a comment if you wish!

Baby M

Remember this picture of these adorable feet?

They belong to this adorable girl!

Same adorable girl! Isn't she grand? I'm in love with her.

So is Elliot. As a matter of fact the other day while Baby M was staying with us,

Elliot asked...."Is she our baby now?" I said...."No, we have to give her back!"

SNIFF SNIFF!

Four Years Ago.....The Best Day of 2006!

Four years ago, God answered a prayer with a "YES"! A healthy baby was welcomed into our family. Elliot Ann Payne graced this world with her presence, and our lives have not been the same since....they have been so much better than we could have ever imagined.

Elliot is the 5th of 5....the baby....the princess!

Her family adores her about as much as anyone could possibly be adored! Her smile and giggle will simply make your day! She, in return, adores her family!

I love how she will eat the entire donut if it's glazed and only the top if it's chocolate!

I love how excited she gets about little things like....donuts for breakfast!

I love that she loves broccoli as much as she loves donuts.

I love that she insists on picking out her own clothes

and tries really hard to choose a matching headband.

I love that she loves her extended family

and is always so thankful to see them.

I love that she loves everything princess and pretty,

and I love that she always wants to wear a dress or a tutu!

I love that she gets as excited about pretty tissue paper

as she does about an actual gift inside the bag.

I love that she always says, "THANK YOU SO MUCH!"

I love that she really appreciates being given something.

I love that although she just turned 4,

her personality shows through in her funky style.

I love that she ADORES her daddy....I mean ADORES him!

I love that she will tell you when she's ready for bed

and go to bed without any problems.

I love that she makes her bed

everyday....and does a darn good job!

I love that she is very independent

and definitely has a mind of her own.

I love that she has a strong will, but

she will tell you "I'm Sorry!" if she's done something wrong.

I love that she is so mature but still sucks her thumb when she's really tired.

I love that she loves school and friends but mostly her family.

I love that, every night when we all share what we are thankful for, she almost always says...

"I'm thankful for my family!"

I love that she loves to play outside, do crafts, read books, sing and dance!

I love that she loves church and is really excited when we read her devotional each night!

I love her cute little toes and how she giggles so heartily

when I tell her I'm going to nibble on them.

I love that she loves for NPayne to sing Stevie Wonder songs to her.

I love that she will tell her sisters that they are all her favorites!

I love that she looks like me,

and that I can see my daddy's eyes in hers.

I love that she is so funny!

I love that she tries so hard to be big,

but that she still really loves being little.

I simply adore her! She melts my heart!

I LOVE YOU ELLIOT ANN PAYNE!

You are an answered prayer!

Happy Birthday Sweet Girl!

Four Generations!

I had the honor and privelege of shooting our children's pastor's extended family this past weekend. We were able to capture four generations with his wife, Teresa, her mother, daughter and two adorable grandchildren. What a blessing. I would always encourage families to take multi generational photos, because if you don't; someday you will wish you had!

Click here to see more!

Just To Make Your Day Brighter

Happy Birthday Elliot Ann Payne!

Once I uncover myself from the white chocolate that I'm using to make her birthday cake, recoup from the sugar buzz and have a moment to breathe, I will write her birthday post! For now, I LOVE this child and thank God for blessing us with her presence....today and every day!

HAPPY

Do you ever feel so overwhelmingly happy that you are almost floating? I feel that way today, and there's no particular reason why I should be happier today than I was yesterday or will be tomorrow....actually tomorrow is Elliot's bday, so I will be....well....melancholy but happy! It's just been a day of joy for me! I woke up feeling overwhelmed by happiness and although Thursdays are the busiest day of the week, and I am NOT a fan of busyness....I am overwhelmingly happy! Well that's all I really needed to share. I wish you all a blissful day of overwhelming happiness today or at least soon!

I'm In Love....

I started watching Baby M today! We get the pleasure of keeping her on Mondays and Wednesdays. Elliot is also enamored by her. She keeps singing her a "lottaby" (lullaby)....Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. She is quite infatuated with Baby M....so am I!