Thursday, May 15, 2014

I Miss My Mommy!

I returned to work today after several days off. I find myself wanting to sit and do nothing, but it has been good to keep busy; and I was excited to see my sweet little two year old preschool friends. They are amazing and fun and exhausting and sweet and smart and adorable; and they love me. I was greeted with lots of hugs,  we missed you's and very kind condolences from their mommies and daddies. I was a little nervous about going back....afraid I might break out into sobs for no apparent reason,  but I didn't. However there was one moment today...that was sweet and tender and sad....and I blinked back tears. One of my sweet little two year olds was crying. This isn't a usual occurrence for her. She is usually very chatty, in charge, inquisitive and happy; but there she was in a heap on the floor. I walked over and asked her what was wrong. She continued to lay on the floor in a heap, head buried in the carpet, crying soft tears.  I swooped her up and wrapped her little arms around my neck and my arms around her little body. She wept with her face buried in my shoulder. I asked her again if she was okay, she composed herself and nodded her head yes. I hugged her tight and put her down on the floor. A few seconds later I felt someone holding my was her. I knelt down and asked her again, "Are you sure you're okay?" She looked right into my eyes and said softly, "I miss my mommy." Her words so sweet and tender were like a stinger in my heart. I couldn't remember ever hearing her say that before. Her lip quivered and so did mine, and she said it again "I miss my mommy." Tears welled up in my eyes, and I said "I miss my mommy too." She wrapped her arms around me and squeezed my neck, then she ran off to play.  It was like she knew that my mom had just passed, and that was her way of telling me she was sorry; and she knew what it was like to miss your mommy.  Two year olds are amazing, aren't they?

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